Welcome to a Secret Subject Swap. This week 6 brave bloggers picked a secret subject for someone else and were assigned a secret subject to interpret in their own style. Today we are all simultaneously divulging our topics and submitting our posts.
My “Secret Subject” is:
How are your private, public, and secret personas different from each other?
It was submitted by: https://thethreegerbers.blogspot.ch/
This is my second attempt at answering this prompt since my first attempt seems to have mysteriously disappeared!
I am a very private, social anxiety-ridden, and very shy person so most of my personas are all private.
The public persona I hope is that of a confident businesswoman trying to help other women get where they want to be. I don’t think I always pull it off, but I always try.
I grew up in a home where name-calling and put-downs were more celebrated than good grades and critical thinking. My father worked long hours so I was often left at home with the 5 people who tormented me more than any others. My place in the family as the only girl was tenuous at best. I was the apple of my father’s eye but a father who worked 70-80 hours weekly can’t see everything.
The rest was often jealous, angry, bored, or a combination and I was the usual sport. It didn’t take much to make me cry back then and that was their favorite sport. Even still when they would get caught I would beg my father not to whip them. I couldn’t stand the sounds when I was a child and that was worse than anything that they could dish out.
You would think that would be enough that they would leave me alone but my interference was often seen as showing off because I was daddy’s girl and made the torment even worse down the road. When my mom would leave me alone with them it would be even worse. One was a molester, one was a bully, one was never home, and the other was just a baby. I didn’t stand a chance but still, I fought and fought.
These days the choices are all my own. I consider my family as my husband, children, and many friends. You can absolutely pick your family. After momma died I choose who I let in. I’m stronger now than I’ve ever been and I will NEVER be somebody’s victim ever again. I have never felt better in my whole life…well except for a crazy year spent in quarantine!
You never know the baggage that someone carries. It’s often invisible, but if I can help someone lighten that load then I would count that as one of the biggest successes of my life.
Here are links to all the sites now featuring Secret Subject Swap posts. Sit back, grab a cup, and check them all out. See you there:
Baking In A Tornado https://www.BakingInATornado.com
A ‘lil HooHaa https://hoohaa.com/
Part-time Working Hockey Mom https://thethreegerbers.blogspot.ch/
The Crazy Mama Llama https://crazymamallama.blogspot.com/